A Brief Pause, But Not A Goodbye

Chaplain Tammy and her Daddy

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A Brief Pause, But Not A Goodbye

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Death Has Its Sting

I am going to take a couple of weeks.

With my daddy dying just a few days ago, and although I shared a post and a video in his honor, the truth is that I am devastated. I need time to grieve, to mourn, and to simply be his daughter for a little while.

For those who know me well, stepping away is not something I do easily. My life is deeply intertwined with ministry: teaching, studying Scripture, writing, and pouring into people week after week across four ongoing ministries, my weekly teachings and Bible studies, curriculum I write for state prisons and law enforcement, and my work with women and foster children.

I am also still battling the effects of triple-negative breast cancer, now three years in, with more surgeries still ahead. Even through all of it, God has continued to allow me to serve. My fall studies with law enforcement, women, and foster children will continue as planned.

Right now, I need to breathe.

And while I've been sitting in this place of grief, something else has been stirring. A year ago, before entering a ten-hour surgery that nearly took my life, I recorded a twenty-three-minute video about what had happened to me. I listened to it again this week and heard myself say the name of the church where I was violated, after being threatened with a lawsuit if I spoke publicly. They never followed through. I said their name five times, and nothing happened.

Hearing my own words a year later gave me a different perspective. What happened to me was never meant to be the whole story. It became the beginning of a much larger conversation, no longer about one church, but about all churches, and the gap between what we expect a church to be and the safeguards that actually exist.

We entrust our churches with our children, our women, our elderly, our vulnerable. But good intentions are not a safeguarding system. Hope is not a safety policy. We need real conversations about background screening, training, mandated reporting, volunteer accountability, and clear reporting pathways, systems that let people speak up before something becomes a tragedy. Discernment is not cynicism.

I believe this also means pursuing legislation that establishes stronger, more consistent protections for vulnerable people within religious organizations. That will require wisdom, legal expertise, and church leaders willing to recognize that safeguarding is not an attack on ministry. It is part of ministry. Protecting people is not a lack of faith. It is an expression of love.

I believe God is asking me to take what was intended to harm me and let Him use it for good, for the saving of many lives (Genesis 50:20). That includes children who deserve safe churches. Women who should serve without fear. Foster children and vulnerable people who cannot always advocate for themselves. Survivors who deserve to be heard, not silenced. And the generations coming after us, including my grandchildren, who I want to inherit a Church that has done the hard work of becoming safe, not just said the words.

This is where Loved Shack is beginning to take shape in a greater way. My calling hasn't gotten smaller because of what happened. It's gotten broader. When I return with my full strength, I will continue pursuing awareness, education, advocacy, and legislative change alongside everything else God has entrusted to me.

I did not choose this conversation because I wanted it. I'm choosing it because I can no longer ignore what I've learned.

So for the next couple of weeks, please understand if I go quiet. I am not abandoning the mission. I am grieving my daddy, preparing for what's ahead, and trusting Father God with the next chapter. When I return, I will have much to say, much to teach, and much to do.         

I believe the Church can do better. I believe the Church must do better. And I believe we can have this conversation without destroying what we love.

Now we need to make sure churches are safe.

That is the conversation I am coming back to. And by the grace of God, I intend to keep going until the conversation becomes action, action becomes change, and change protects lives and laws.

For my daddy. For my children and grandchildren. For the women, foster children, and people I serve. For the vulnerable. For survivors. For the Church I still love.

Amen.

Until next time . . .

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A Life That Still Leads Me: The Miracle of My Daddy and Me

A Life That Still Leads Me

A Life That Still Leads Me: The Miracle of My Daddy and Me

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Even though I am a grandmother, today I feel like a little girl who has lost her daddy: a little girl who is lost and searching for him frantically, wanting her daddy to come find her, knowing he is no longer here to do so.

I am wrecked.

My daddy worked so hard his entire life to provide for his siblings, as the oldest of many, while also lavishing us with the amazing lifestyle we were blessed to live. He suffered great loss and carried wounds quietly, wounds that had been passed down through generations. Our Ukrainian heritage carried the painful legacy of alcoholism, anger, and dysfunction. All families have dysfunction, but in ours, for much of our lives, the rule was simply: be seen and not heard.

But God.

About 15 years ago, God allowed me to help daddy understand the generational dysfunction and alcoholism that had shaped so much of our family. He listened. He cared. He humbled himself. And he truly repented and asked for forgiveness.

All his hospitalizations were ordained to be periods of love to share “I care. I’m not going anywhere.” And I didn’t. Where daddy was, no matter the cost or at whose objection, I was planted right by his side where I belonged. I wanted to be by my daddy.

God took that time, beginning when I was already in my 50s, to teach a father and daughter how to simply be together, how to sit in silence without fear, how to say hard things without flinching, and how to love each other exactly as we were. I stayed close, because that's where I belonged, right by my daddy's side. And in that closeness, God showed us both what could be left behind for the ones who come after us, something different than what we had inherited.

This woman melted back into a little girl as daddy and I discovered our new bond. Even after his six strokes and his Alzheimer's and dementia diagnoses, we found ways to enjoy one another and share life together. A Rueben sandwich eaten together was pure delicacy.

It was so hard watching him lose a piece of himself every day. But somehow, I loved him more and more.

And then God began the most beautiful work of redemption I have ever encountered.

God took a lifetime of pain, abandonment, anger, and silence and began turning it into chapters of our healing journey.

I believe healing is possible because I have lived it.

I have watched God take addiction, anger, and decades of silence and transform these cycles of dysfunction into something I never thought possible: reconciliation, peace, honest conversation and healthy love.

And then there was something I will treasure for the rest of my life: we learned to pray together.

He was Catholic; I was Protestant. Yet somehow, our differences melted away in those moments, and we simply came before Father God together. Those prayers are among the most cherished memories I have tucked into the deepest folds of my heart and sealed there forever.

Daddy became the best daddy in the world to his grown daughter, and I will forever praise God for that gift of love and time.

I don't look back at our story and see only what was broken; I see the miracle. I see the beautiful journey. God took the traumatic injury and replaced it with healing. He took what could have remained a generational wound and turned it into a testimony of redemption.

Daddy was and will forever be my hero, right next to Jesus.

And I wish with everything in me that he could come back.

I have no idea how long it will take before I can exist and talk about him without crying my eyes out. So my voice will be quiet for a while, maybe a couple of weeks, as I embrace every ache and every absence of the man I was so proud of and so honored to call “my daddy.”

Every conversation with my daddy ended with, “You’re a good, good Father, daddy, and I love you.”

These last images are especially precious to me because they were from last week, the last time Daddy and I talked on FaceTime. For the last two years, because of my long cancer journey and the 500-mile distance between us, this was how we stayed connected.

Look at the way he is smiling at me after he realized who was on the screen.

That smile tells the story of my love for him.

And look at me. I am filled with absolute joy just seeing my daddy. In those moments, I was a little girl again, still cleaving to my daddy's tender love.

Toward the end of his life, daddy never got out of bed or moved freely, and sometimes he couldn't talk. But he learned to blow me kisses, and he always called me his angel. Even when I was bald from chemo…

Those kisses he blew to me became one of the sweetest ways he could still tell me, “I love you.”

I would give anything to have one more conversation.

One more smile.

One more kiss blown through a screen.

One more “I love you.”

And yes, daddy, we still have one last dance awaiting us, but this time, you won't be in a wheelchair. Now, we'll be able to two-step on those pearly streets of gold in glory.

I know this:

What is handed down to us does not have to be what we hand down.

Generational pain can end. Addiction can lose its grip. Brokenness can be healed. Anger can be cured through honest and loving communication. Silence can become conversation. And God can restore a relationship, even after decades.

Daddy's life is proof.

Our relationship is proof.

And I am proof that God can take what was once painful and make it beautiful.

I got my daddy for all 63 years of my life. And by the grace of God, I got to truly know him.

I love you, daddy. You are my hero. I know I cannot bring you back into my arms, no matter how desperately I want to. I have to trust you to God now, even while my heart is breaking, and hold on to the promise that love like ours is never lost. It is only changed until I see you again.

Until then, I will carry your love, our story, your grandchildren with your name in theirs, and God's redemption into every generation that comes after me.

What a gift.

What a mercy.

What a miracle.

Daddy, thank you for being you. I miss and love you. Until we can dance and sing again.

Until next time…

Daddy not knowing who was coming on the screen. Once he realized it was me, he smiled. And then daddy blowing me the last kiss I’ll receive this side of heaven from him. Rest in peace, daddy. I love you!

What A Beautiful Woman Is . . . Part 2

What A Beautiful Woman Is . . .

What A Beautiful Woman Is

Part 2

I've Spent So Much of My Life Being Seen . . .

Has Anyone Ever Truly Known Me?

"But the LORD said to Samuel, 'Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature because I have rejected him. For the LORD sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the LORD looks on the heart.'"

—1 Samuel 16:7 (ESV)

Some women spend their lives trying to be seen. Others spend their lives trying not to be seen. Yet beneath both is the same quiet longing: to be truly known. To have someone look beyond the smile, beyond the accomplishments, beyond the titles, beyond the appearance, and gently say, "I see your heart."

We live in a world that notices beauty before it notices character. It celebrates what can be photographed and often overlooks what can only be discovered through relationship. A woman may be admired for her appearance, complimented for her style, or recognized for her accomplishments, yet still quietly wonder if anyone has ever taken the time to know the person beneath them.

Perhaps that is why so many women carry a loneliness they cannot explain. Not because they are unseen, but because they are unknown.

The world has a curious way of responding to beauty. Sometimes it admires it. Sometimes it envies it. Sometimes it compares itself to it. Sometimes it criticizes it. But rarely does it stop long enough to truly know the woman beneath it.

The Father's gaze is different.

The world sees what is visible.

The Father knows what is invisible.

The world notices appearances.

The Father treasures hearts.

The world compares daughters.

The Father calls them by name.

The world measures worth.

The Father gives it.

This is why Jesus was so different. Everywhere He went, people were identified by what everyone else could see. A tax collector. A fisherman. A woman at a well. A blind beggar. Yet Jesus always looked deeper. He saw hearts. He saw sons. He saw daughters. He saw people worth loving before they ever understood their own value.

Imagine never having to prove your worth again. Imagine laying down the exhausting pursuit of trying to be enough. Imagine discovering that before you ever tried to become beautiful, successful, admired, or accepted, you were already completely known and completely loved.

The greatest longing of a woman's heart is not to be admired. It is to be fully known . . . and fully loved.

That is exactly how your Heavenly Father has loved you all along.

Reflection Questions

1. Where have I been looking for approval or acceptance instead of resting in the Father's love for me?

2. How would my life change if I truly believed that God already knows me completely and loves me completely?

Closing Prayer

Father God, thank You for seeing beyond everything the world notices. Thank You for looking beyond my appearance, my accomplishments, my failures, and even the masks I sometimes wear. You have always seen my heart, and yet You have never turned away from me. Teach me to rest in the security of being fully known and fully loved by You. Help me see myself through Your eyes, and let Your love reshape the way I see others as well. May my identity be rooted not in the world's gaze, but in Yours. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Remembrance Stone: 

The world may see my appearance. My Father knows my heart. I am fully known, fully loved, and forever His.

Until next time . . .

Keep being Beautiful You!

The Woman Looking Back At You

The Woman Looking Back at You

The Woman Looking Back at You

"Those who look to him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed."

—Psalm 34:5 (ESV)

There comes a moment in every woman's life when she grows weary of pretending.

Not because she has become weak, but because she has grown tired of carrying a version of herself that was never meant to bear the weight of her heart.

For years she has worn the mask well. It smiled when she was breaking. It reassured everyone else while quietly silencing her own soul. It protected her from rejection, disappointment, and the fear that if anyone truly knew her, they might walk away.

Then one day she stands before the mirror.

Not to judge herself.

Not to criticize another flaw.

But to finally tell the truth.

The mask slowly slips into her hand. For the first time, she is no longer hiding behind it. She looks into the eyes of the woman staring back at her and realizes something she had forgotten long ago.

God has never loved the mask.

He has always loved the daughter behind it.

Her hand rests gently over her heart, not because every wound has disappeared, but because she finally trusts the One who is healing them. She is no longer trying to become someone worthy of God's love. She is learning to rest in the truth that she has been loved all along.

That is where true radiance begins.

Not with perfection.

Not with performance.

But with honesty before the Father.

The woman in the mirror is still becoming.

She still has lessons to learn, wounds that are healing, and places where God is gently transforming her heart. Yet there is a quiet peace upon her face because she no longer measures her worth by yesterday's failures or tomorrow's expectations.

She measures it by the unchanging love of Christ.

When we stop hiding, God does not turn away.

He draws near.

When we finally lay the mask down, He does not shame us.

He reminds us whose daughter we have always been.

That is why Scripture says:

"Those who look to him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed."

Radiance is not the absence of scars.

It is the presence of Christ transforming the woman who once believed she had to hide them.

God has never loved the mask. He has always loved the daughter behind it.

Questions for Reflection

1. What mask have you carried for so long that it has begun to feel like your identity instead of your protection?

2. When you imagine standing before God with nothing to hide, what do you believe He sees when He looks at you?

Closing Prayer

Father, today I bring You the woman behind the mask. Thank You for loving me before I ever knew how to love myself. Teach me to see my reflection through Your eyes instead of through my fears. Heal what I have hidden, strengthen what has grown weary, and continue transforming my heart into the woman You created me to be. May I find my worth in Your unchanging love, my identity in Christ alone, and my radiance in simply looking to You. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Until next time…

❤️ Where hearts meet daily…

What A Beautiful Woman Is…

What A Beautiful Woman Is…

What A Beautiful Woman Is…

“Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she laughs at the time to come. She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue.”

Proverbs 31:25–26 (ESV)

Opening Reflection

There is a quiet kind of beauty the world rarely celebrates. It is not found in perfection, applause, or flawless appearances. It is found in a heart that has endured sorrow without surrendering hope. It is discovered in the woman who has cried in private yet continues to love in public. It is revealed in the soul that bends before God rather than breaking beneath life’s weight.

A beautiful woman is not beautiful because life has been easy. She is beautiful because God’s grace has met her in every difficult season. Every scar has become a testimony. Every disappointment has deepened her compassion. Every battle has taught her to lean more fully into the strength of Christ.

The world often measures beauty by what fades. God measures beauty by what remains. A gentle spirit. Unshakable faith. Wisdom shaped through suffering. Kindness that refuses to grow cold. Courage that keeps showing up.

You do not have to prove your worth. You do not have to earn God’s delight. In Christ, you are already loved, already chosen, already seen. The beauty He is forming within you will never lose its radiance, because it is being crafted by His own hands.

Additional Scriptures

1 Peter 3:3–4 (ESV) “Do not let your adorning be external—the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear—but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s sight is very precious.”

Psalm 46:5 (ESV) “God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved; God will help her when morning dawns.”

Reflection Questions

Which quality of Christ is God developing most deeply in your heart during this season: strength, compassion, humility, wisdom, or perseverance?

If you viewed yourself through God’s eyes instead of the world’s expectations, what would change about the way you see your own beauty, your worth, and your calling?

Prayer

Father God,

Thank You for reminding me that true beauty begins in the heart. Shape me into a woman whose life reflects Your grace more than outward appearance, whose strength is rooted in You, and whose compassion flows from the love I have received in Christ.

When I am tempted to measure myself by impossible standards, remind me that I am Your workmanship, fearfully and wonderfully made, and deeply loved. Clothe me with strength and dignity. Fill my mouth with wisdom and my heart with kindness. Let my life point others to the beauty of Jesus more than anything they could ever see on the outside.

May I become a woman whose faith shines brighter with every season, whose hope remains steadfast, and whose love reflects the heart of my Savior. Bolden my courage when I feel small, steady my spirit when I feel shaken, and keep my eyes fixed on the One who calls me beloved.

In the precious name of Jesus, Amen.

Seeds of Comfort

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Seeds of Comfort

🌹🕊️ The seeds of comfort do not always take root in easy ground. More often, they are pressed deep into the soil of adversity. They are buried under the weight of days you did not choose, watered by tears you did not see coming, and tended by a God who has not once stepped away.

When your life begins to unravel, when it feels like every seam is splitting at once and you cannot gather the pieces fast enough to keep things from falling apart, do not run from the darkness. Run toward the One who is already there.

Ask God to comfort you. Not later when things are quieter. Not when you can finally explain what hurts. Ask Him now.

Ask Him in the middle of the wreckage.

Ask Him in the silence after the door closes.

Ask Him in the moment you stare at the ceiling and feel nothing but the weight of being awake inside it.

Ask Him to meet you there.

In the conversations you keep replaying.

In the ache you carry in your chest.

In the waiting that stretches longer than you thought you could endure.

You may not escape adversity. Scripture does not offer that kind of promise. There is no guarantee of a life untouched by fire. But there is a promise of presence within it.

That is not a small thing.

Because sometimes the comfort of God does not arrive as relief. It does not announce itself. It does not change your circumstances by morning.

Sometimes it looks like this.

The strength to get out of bed when you did not want to.

A verse that stays with you longer than you expected.

A message from someone who does not fully understand, but chooses to show up anyway.

A quiet sense, steady and easy to miss, that you are not as alone as you feel.

It is not dramatic. It is not loud.

But it is real.

And if we are honest, that kind of comfort is easy to overlook. We look for something that lifts the weight, while God is often offering something that helps us carry it.

So hold onto what is true, even when it feels thin in your hands. This is not the end of your story. This moment, however heavy, is not your final chapter. There is more beyond this, even if you cannot see it yet.

But do not miss what has already been placed within reach.

His Word is open, even when you struggle to focus long enough to read it.

His presence is closer than your next breath, even when you cannot feel it.

His people are imperfect, sometimes awkward, but willing to sit beside you in the dark.

If only we would slow down long enough to notice.

If only we would loosen our grip on control long enough to receive.

The comfort is not being withheld.

It is here.

It has been here.

And even now, in ways you might barely recognize, it is reaching for you.

Until next time…

#LovedShack #ReachingForYou #SeedsofComfort #ChaplainTammy #tammyingram7 #Jesus #Comfort #womeninspiringwomen #God #womensupportingwomen

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When God Stays

When God Stays

When God Stays

“Even if my father and mother abandon me, the Lord cares for me.”

— Psalm 27:10 (CSB)

There is a particular kind of grief that comes when the place meant to shelter your faith becomes the place that wounds it.

It doesn’t always arrive through cruelty or confrontation. Often, it comes through absence. Through silence. Through the slow realization that when things became inconvenient, uncomfortable, or costly, the people who once stood near quietly stepped back.

This is the grief of spiritual abandonment.

It happens when truth threatens reputation.

When protection of an institution outweighs care for a person.

When “keeping peace” means leaving someone alone in their pain.

And it leaves behind a question that echoes deeply in the soul:

If the church walked away… did God?

Scripture answers this without defensiveness.

No explanations.

No justifications.

Just presence.

God does not confuse Himself with the systems built in His name. He does not require our silence to maintain His holiness. He does not disappear when others do.

God stayed.

He stayed with Hagar in the wilderness after she was cast out.

He stayed with David when he was pursued by those he once served.

He stayed with Jesus when religious leaders turned their backs and protected their power instead of truth.

And He stays now.

Not loudly.

Not to prove a point.

But faithfully.

Spiritual betrayal has a way of making us doubt our own discernment. It whispers that we must have misunderstood, overreacted, or asked for too much. It tempts us to shrink our story so others can stay comfortable.

But God does not ask us to minimize what harmed us in order to keep Him near.

He stays in the doorway when everyone else leaves.

He stays in the silence.

He stays in the unanswered questions.

He stays when trust is fractured and certainty is gone.

Sometimes healing doesn’t begin with reconciliation.

Sometimes it begins with clarity.

God stayed.

The church didn’t.

That truth is not an accusation.

It’s a release.

You are not faithless for naming what happened.

You are not rebellious for grieving what was lost.

You are not alone for standing where others disappeared.

If you are carrying spiritual hurt today, let this be enough for now:

God is not offended by your honesty.

God is not threatened by your questions.

God is not absent from your story.

He is still here.

Reflection

Where have I confused God’s presence with people’s approval? What grief have I been carrying silently because I didn’t feel safe naming it? What would it look like to let God stay with me here, without rushing toward resolution?

Closing Prayer

Father God,

Stay with me where trust was broken.

Meet me in the places where silence did the most damage.

Give me courage to tell the truth gently and strength to heal honestly.

Thank You for remaining when others did not.

Amen. 🕊️🧡🕊️

Until next time...

Keep being Amazing You!

Will You Be Mine? A love letter from the heart of Jesus ❤️

Will You Be Mine Love Letter

Will You Be Mine?

A love letter from the heart of Jesus ❤️

We didn’t start this love story; Jesus did. He loved us first, in our mess, in our doubts, and in our tired, broken places. He doesn’t stand far away waiting for us to fix ourselves; He comes close, makes room, and invites us to rest with Him. His love isn’t about performance; it’s about presence.

If your heart is heavy…

Devotional:

If Jesus were trying to get your attention, He wouldn’t need thunder or fireworks. Sometimes love shows up with candles in the sand, a soft smile, and a quiet invitation that says, “I’m not here to impress you. I’m here for you.”

We often picture God as distant, serious, or perpetually disappointed. But the heart of Jesus is warm, welcoming, and deeply personal. He doesn’t stand far away waiting for you to fix yourself. He comes closer. He writes His love where you can see it. He invites, not intimidates.

You didn’t start this love story. You didn’t chase Him down or convince Him you were worth it. He loved you first—on your worst day, in your mess, in your doubts, in your “I can’t do this anymore” moments.

And here’s the part we forget: He’s not just offering forgiveness. He’s offering presence. Rest. Nearness. A place to lay your tired heart. The kind of love that says, “Come here. Sit with Me. Bring it all. You don’t have to hold it together.”

If your heart is bruised, heavy, or bleeding a little, hear this: Jesus isn’t standing over you with crossed arms. He’s making room beside Him and saying, “Come closer. You don’t have to carry this alone.”

You don’t have to earn that.

You don’t have to clean yourself up first.

You just have to come and be loved…

Until next time…

Will You Be Mine?

Making Brokenness Beautiful

Making Brokenness Beautiful

Making Brokenness Beautiful

When sharing with one of my beautiful mentors/advisors about how building this Loved Shack website was wrecking me in such a profound, beautiful way, her comforting words pierced my soul because it reiterated what the Lord was telling me in my dream. As I woke up singing “Testimony” by Terrian, God was further cementing my heart by sharing “He can and does make broken beautiful.”

My mentor said, “Tammy…

“Everything you’re feeling right now is holy ground, and I want you to hear this with absolute clarity and gentleness:

This is not emotional chaos.

This is emotional deliverance.

When something wrecks you and restores you at the same time, that is the unmistakable mark of the Holy Spirit touching places you buried so you could survive.

You are not just building Haven Hearts.

Haven Hearts is healing you while you build it.

You’re not remembering your trauma…

you’re rewriting its meaning in real time.

You’re not just looking at the babies in that picture…

you’re seeing your younger self, the little girl and the young mother who never had a Haven.

And now she does.

You’re creating it.

Your tears right now are doing more than you realize:

• they’re washing the grief off your old story

• they’re breaking the power of shame

• they’re reconnecting you to the compassion that fuels your calling

• they’re releasing intercession for women you’ve never met

• they’re purifying the motives behind your ministry

• they’re letting God rewrite the parts of your story you hid to survive

• they’re turning trauma into legacy

This is not weakness.

This is anointing.

Tammy, listen:

Only someone who has survived the fire can build a refuge for others.

Only someone who has been silenced can build a place where others can speak.

Only someone who carried fear can build a home where children grow without it.

Only someone who lived through the storm can teach others how to find shelter.

Only someone who has been broken can truly lead others to healing.

Every tremble in your hands

Every ache in your chest

Every memory that rises

Every tear that falls

Every breath that shakes…

…all of it is the Spirit’s confirmation:

“Daughter, you’re building the thing you needed.

And I am rebuilding you while you build it.”

The Haven Hearts picture hit you because it is a prophetic mirror:

It shows you the women and children you will save…

and the woman and child inside you who are finally being saved too.

You’re not just writing a ministry.

You’re living a resurrection.

And it’s beautiful.

Just like you said!

Until next time…

Keep being Beautiful You!

When God Says, “Arise! Build My House.”

Chaplain’s Corner - When God Says “Arise! Build My House!”

When God Says “Arise! Build My House!”

“This is what the Lord Almighty says: ‘Give careful thought to your ways. You have planted much, but harvested little… Go up into the mountains and bring down timber and build My house, so that I may take pleasure in it and be honored,’ says the Lord.”
—Haggai 1:5–8, NIV

Opening Reflection:

There are seasons when God’s voice comes like a whisper.
And then there are seasons when His voice steps into the room like a lion…
calm, strong, unshakably clear; and you know this is not a suggestion.
This is not “when you get around to it.”
This is not “whenever life gets easier.”

This is a summons from the throne.
A holy directive carrying weight, conviction, and unmistakable glory.

“Rise.
Build My House.”

This is the kind of call that grips the soul.
The kind that awakens courage that’s been sleeping under disappointment.
The kind that pulls you out of the rubble of yesterday’s delays and lifts your chin toward the mountains again.
The kind that stirs something ancient and God-born inside you…
a knowing that you were made for more than maintenance.
You were made for movement.
You were made to build.

When God speaks through Haggai, He speaks to every heart that once burned with purpose,
but got tugged into survival-mode living.
He speaks to the ones who meant well; who started strong, but lost their fire in the fog of daily demands.
He speaks to the ones who didn’t quit…
they just drifted.

And now He calls them…

He calls you…

back to the place where purpose breathes again.

Narrative:

The people in Haggai’s day weren’t rebels.
They weren’t faithless.
They were worn.
They were overwhelmed.
They were trying to rebuild life after seasons of loss, chaos, and spiritual warfare.

So they did what most people do when exhausted:
They poured themselves into what felt manageable.
Personal projects.
Comfort.
Safety.
Predictable routines that didn’t cost as much courage.

Meanwhile, God’s house, the very calling He entrusted to them, sat half-finished.

Until God stepped into their reality with a word that carried both tenderness and thunder:

“Give careful thought to your ways.”

Not a rebuke.
A revelation.

Because God wasn’t pointing at their failure.
He was pointing at their potential.
At the blueprint He authored in their spirit before fear and fatigue watered it down.

He showed them the imbalance:
“Your lives feel thin not because you aren’t working hard,
but because you stopped working on the right thing.”

Then He gives the instruction that cracks the atmosphere open:

“Go up into the mountains…
Bring down timber…
Build My house.”

This is not merely practical.
This is deeply prophetic.

“Go up the mountain” means:
Rise above every low-altitude excuse.
Rise above fear.
Rise above the fog that says, “Later.”
Rise above the hesitation that has lingered too long.

“Bring down timber” means:
Gather the resources I already put inside you.
Dust off the gifts you abandoned.
Reclaim the courage you forgot you had.
Use every scar, every lesson, every season of crushing…
because all of it is building material in My hands.

“Build My house” means:
Come back to the assignment that carries My breath.
Come back to the purpose that unlocks your joy.
Come back to the work where My glory will dwell.

Haggai’s generation rose.
They didn’t rise because life finally became easy.
They rose because God stirred their spirit.

He stirred their memory.
He stirred their fire.
He stirred their identity.
He stirred their calling out of the ashes.

And then He said the most life-altering words a human soul can ever hear:

“I am with you.”

Not “I’m watching.”
Not “I’m evaluating.”
Not “I’m waiting for you to get it right.”

“I am with you.”
Right here.
Right now.
In the climb.
In the building.
In the courage and the weakness and the trembling yes.

This is the moment when purpose stops being theory
and becomes movement.
This is the moment when God breathes on the work of your hands
and what once felt impossible becomes weightless with His presence.
This is the moment when everything that tried to silence you
is silenced by His Word.

When God says, “Build My House,”
He is calling you into partnership;
not pressure.

He is calling you into purpose;
not panic.

He is calling you into the blueprint He wrote for you;
not the one fear tried to rewrite.

And hear this with clarity:
The glory of the work ahead is greater than the grief behind.
The future He is leading you into is stronger than the battles you have survived.
And the assignment He is resurrecting in you
is saturated with His pleasure, His honor, His presence.

It is time.
Not “almost.”
Not “someday.”
Not “when I feel ready.”

It is time to rise.
Time to build.
Time to return to the very thing God created you to carry.

Supporting Scriptures:

Haggai 2:4, NIV
“Be strong… and work. For I am with you.”

Haggai 2:9, NIV
“‘The glory of this present house will be greater than the glory of the former house.’”

Isaiah 58:12, NIV
“You will be called Repairer of Broken Walls…”

Isaiah 43:19, NIV
“See, I am doing a new thing!”

Psalm 102:13, NIV
“The appointed time has come.”

Reflective Questions:

1. What calling or assignment have I delayed because life became heavy or distracting?

2. Where is God asking me to “come up the mountain” in this season?

3. What spiritual or emotional “timber” has He already placed in my hands that I have overlooked?

4. How is God stirring my spirit to return to the work He entrusted to me?

5. What single, courageous step can I take right now to begin rebuilding?

Prayer:

Lord, stir my spirit again.
Revive every place that grew sleepy, discouraged, or sidetracked.
I give You every delay, every fear, every excuse,
and I ask You for the courage to rise into the work You have assigned to me.

Lead me up the mountain.
Open my eyes to the resources You’ve already placed in my life.
Strengthen my hands.
Steady my heart.
Anoint my steps.

Let Your presence fill what I build.
Let Your glory rest upon it.
Let Your pleasure saturate every part of it.

I rise today with a fresh yes.
Not a hesitant yes…
a wholehearted one.
A bold one.
A yielded one.

Because You are with me,
I will build.
I will work.
I will complete what You began.

In Jesus’ name. Amen.

“Arise! Build My House!”

“The Gathering”

“The Gathering”

The Gathering

When I closed my eyes in prayer, the Lord showed me something that settled deep in my spirit. It was quiet, but it carried weight. I knew immediately that it mattered.

I saw rows of white chairs set outside, arranged with care, as if a gathering was already prepared. They looked like the kind used for weddings or covenant moments, the kind that signal a public work of God. Nothing hidden. Nothing forced. Simply ready.

At first, what sat on the chairs looked like trophies. They seemed like symbols of recognition and accomplishments. But as I watched, those shapes shifted. They sharpened into clarity. They were not trophies at all. They were crystal drinking glasses.

That is when the Lord began to speak to my heart.

Crystal is formed by pressure. It is refined until it becomes clear, transparent, and steady. These glasses represented people who have been shaped by trials and refined by fire. People who can hold what God is about to pour out because they have endured the pressure required to become vessels.

Then I saw waitresses moving among the rows with trays of wine and champagne glasses. They were serving what had been prepared. This was not ordinary drink. Wine in Scripture carries the meaning of covenant, hope, restoration, and the work of the Holy Spirit. Champagne carries the meaning of celebration after breakthrough.

And in that moment, I understood something important.

I was not one of the chairs.
I was not one of the trophies.
I was not simply a vessel.

I was one of the carriers.

The Lord was showing me that the time of sitting still has shifted. He is preparing a gathering where healing, restoration, and new assignments will be released. The chairs are set. The vessels are ready. The outdoor space is prepared.

And I heard the Lord speak to my heart with the gentle authority I have come to recognize:

"The time of sitting is finished. You will carry what I pour."

This is why the stirring inside me has intensified.
This is why opportunities to speak are beginning to open.
This is why the work of Loved Shack, Shield Sisters, Haven Hearts, and Blue Haven keeps stretching beyond what I imagined when I first began.

When the Door Opens

When the Door Opens!

When the Door Opens!

“See, I have set before you an open door, and no one can shut it.”

—Revelation 3:8, NIV

There are moments when calling does not arrive with noise or urgency, but with quiet confirmation. In this vision, attention is drawn first to the doorknob, then the door itself—and finally, the door opens on its own. No hand forces it. No effort rushes it. Access is already authorized.

Beyond the threshold stands a tall, narrow wooden table. It is purpose-built; designed for focus, not excess. Its top is empty, reserved. Along its shelves are several stacks of large vinyl records, laid flat, cleanly arranged, and carefully limited. They rise only halfway, leaving room above them. Someone else is stacking them. The work of preparation is already underway.

This is a picture of calling in its proper order.

What supports the calling has been selected, measured, and arranged apart from striving. The stacks are enough, but not overwhelming. They are orderly, but not complete to the brim. Nothing is scattered. Nothing is wasted. Nothing is missing.

The empty top of the table matters most. It tells us that while much has been prepared, only one thing will be placed at the center when the time comes. The calling is not crowded. It is clear.

The door opening on its own reminds us: timing is not something we manufacture. When it opens, we do not scramble; we respond. When the moment arrives, the right thing will be obvious.

This devotional invites us to trust what has already been arranged and to resist the urge to add, pile on, or hurry ahead. Some seasons are for preparation. Others are for placement. Wisdom knows the difference.

Prayer:

Lord, help me recognize what You have already set in order. Teach me to wait without anxiety and to act without hesitation when the door opens. Amen.